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Hello my name is Pratyush. You already knew that, but I still needed to get one sentence down for this blog so that I could just force myself to put one up after this long. 

I haven’t posted a blog in a very long time, and I kept feeling terrible about it, because I knew I was wasting so much time here and there, doing work I didn’t want to do and could easily designate, and feeling shit about myself scrolling through my instagram feed. On top of that, around the time I posted my last blog, I loved my insta feed. It was filled with comics, from well known artists and from artists just starting off. I didn’t have much anime related content (which practically fills 50% of my current feed even though I never look at those edits and AMVs) and it was a clean meme-free feed with beautiful pictures of scenery, some exercise related content, good architecture and plants. Fast forward to today, 90% of my entire feed is junk and I still don’t know why I scroll through it. I have no idea how it got this bad. (Luckily my Pinterest is still safe and is filled with quotes and the aforementioned things)

Now while my entire feed was going through this change, I wrote down like 50 new blog ideas, which seemed perfect at that time. I had the entire structure ready in like 2 minutes, I knew what jokes to add here and there, I knew what cheeky punchlines I could slide in with my content and I knew that it would be an amazing blog.

Except I never wrote it.

I just wrote down the topic on my Notion to-do list and forgot about it. I thought that I would designate a portion of my time to writing the blogs. When that time came, which it very rarely did, I didn’t want to write the blog anymore. Like the spark had gone, and I wasn’t excited, and I could start listing down all the reasons why it would be a piece of junk not worth reading, kinda like what I am typing right now. I didn’t contain any worthwhile content. 

So I don’t have all those blogs up right now, and I doubt I’ll end up posting them anytime soon. But today I am writing this blog immediately after the idea came. Reason? I was 100% sure that If I put it off for even 5 seconds more, I wouldn’t write it. I got this realization that I am a very impulsive writer, I just end up brain-dumping everything here and then I feel reluctant to edit it because then I doubt if it will stay genuine. So change of plans, now onwards whenever I have an idea, I’ll write it down IMMEDIATELY. And if possible, post it immediately too to stop myself from judging what I have written. This is the only way I’m going to be able to continue posting consistently. 

Oh and now to why I showed up back to my blog today, like returning from a long vacation.  I had a new idea. 

So I have been trying to prepare a ted talk speech and send it in for this years TedX conference on the theme - Off the Grid. (Smh Donda moment)

I am an introvert and I wanted to talk about how we need to go off the grid and distance ourselves from people and society every now and then to question what we’re doing and if it is what we truly want to be doing with our lives. I also recharge away from people, and I think a little bit of meditation and  solitude (now that I can harness its power better) should be in everyone’s life. Along with this, when you go off the grid in this sense and then come back, you’ll feel rejuvenated, motivated and a lot more productive. (I really suggest you try it sometime)

Then guess what happened? Every single idea which popped up in my head had a YouTube video on it already. I mean, things like going off social media and stuff is pretty common, I expected videos to be there, but there was already content for EVERYTHING I could think of. Sigh…Sahith was right, there is nothing original in this world anymore. (Even this opinion isn’t original) 

So, what do I do now? I don’t want my video to be a replica, or a copy of anyone else. I want it to be personally ‘mine’. And I really really wanted it to be unique :/

Well, my solution, I’m just going to go ahead with my original idea. If its not unique, not my fault, I didn’t choose to be born after these people, in fact I have had these ideas before, I just didn’t do anything about it ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Even if the idea isn’t originally mine, that’s ok, I’ll personalize it in my own way and I’ll still send in my attempt. If I’m lucky my video is good enough, then I’ll get in, otherwise there is still scope for improvement. 

And…That was one more blog. Sigh why do I put off writing so much when its not even that hard or time taking…